A Shadow Inside Of Me

There's an odd feeling inside of me
And it's so hard to explain
It's a fear
It's a jealousy
It's a desire
I can feel it swell within
As it brings merciless pain
I want to let go of it
And yet
I hold on
When I try to run away from it
It follows me
Like a creeping shadow
In the darkness
When I try to hide
It searches far and wide
Sensing my presence
Knowing I'm there
When I confront it
I can't see it
As if I were staring at nothing
Blind to its visible form
I feel uncertain
So confused
And all at once
Lost
Yet it remains
Chasing me day and night
Never to rest
A shadow inside of me
Devoting its life
To hunt me down
And frighten me to death